It sucks when you feel like you’re shunned. I know I am loved by the people who matter, but sometimes I want the people who don’t matter to me anymore to matter again. I want them to matter to me because they should matter to me. I don’t want to be rejecting them in my heart and mind, just to protect myself from the pain they inflict on me and others. That is not normal, but I’m afraid it’s going to have to be my normal from now on.